fishyfishgul said: stumbled upon your stuff via a friend's facebook thread. I was really intrigued by the comic (the one about the spaghetti. too funny, btw) and decided to follow you on tumblr. very soon, I realised that we had a LOT in common art wise and the funk that I was in lifted. my question: HOW did you get over your three year non-art funk? what made you pick up the pen/pencil/stylus again?
The main impetus for me was that one of my friends encouraged me to apply for an artist fellowship about a year ago. I wasn’t drawing at all at the time, so my reaction at first was something along the lines of, “No thanks, I don’t do that anymore.” Eventually, though, it became this kind of fun challenge to try to pull together a portfolio before the deadline. Even though I knew I had no chance of getting the fellowship, I enjoyed having a project to concentrate on. I had just started neurofeedback, too, so my mental and emotional state was improving and the timing was just right to get me on that trajectory towards seriously pursuing art again.
I feel it’s important to be clear, though, that I’m STILL getting over my funk. I wish it were as easy as just deciding to pick up a pencil again, but I can’t undo years’ worth of psychological damage overnight. It’s taken a lot of time and effort and therapy and outside support, no bootstraps whatsoever, to get me to where I am now. I’m still working to break my bad habits, discipline myself, and draw on a consistent basis. And I definitely still have days where I’m like, “I could draw… OR I could just lie here motionless.” But the point is that I’m consistently getting BETTER. Accepting recovery as a lengthy, ongoing process has helped me be patient with myself and really appreciate how far I’ve come.
Sorry this answer is probably way longer and more involved than you bargained for.